tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-89531628748145727232024-03-12T20:51:13.151-05:00My Cancer ScoreboardMy Cancer Scoreboardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09209188482311668121noreply@blogger.comBlogger17125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8953162874814572723.post-81184548093038092552011-11-01T10:33:00.000-05:002011-11-01T10:33:55.855-05:00November 1st - Day One of Lung Cancer Awareness MonthI hope everyone is well, I have many things to touch on today, so here it goes!!<br />
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As many of you already know, my nonprofit is getting off of the ground fairly quickly, the website is officially up, but under MAJOR construction at the moment. However, please check it out and consider joining our gift program, the information is all there, it's just not completely organized and perfected yet.<br />
You can check out CancerScore Today By Clicking <b><a href="http://www.cancerscoretoday.com/">Here</a> </b>Thank you in advance for your support and help.<br />
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Today also is November 1st! Where did the year go? November is Lung Cancer Awareness Month. Christine Dwyer, who happens to be my Media Relations Director for <b><a href="http://www.cancerscoretoday.com/">CancerScore Today</a> </b>(and is doing a fabulous job!) has an organization called Make Some Noise For Lung Cancer Awareness. Her website can be found by clicking <b><a href="http://www.make-some-noiseforlungcancer.webs.com/">Here</a></b><br />
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Christine has her hands full this month, as her organization is sponsoring Illuminate The Falls for Lung Cancer Awareness. On Wednesday, November 16th, from 8:15pm and again at 9:15pm (Eastern Standard Time) Niagara Falls will be illuminated with white lights in honor of Lung Cancer Awareness Month. In addition there will also be links for the live feed of the falls that night so EVERYONE can witness the event. The Live Feed Links are posted below. Check out the <b><a href="http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=285873131436318">EVENT PAGE</a></b> as well as the Story that was featured on About.com by clicking on these links: The <b><a href="http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=285873131436318">EVENT PAGE</a></b> and <b><a href="http://lungcancer.about.com/b/2011/10/31/niagara-falls-to-be-lit-up-for-lung-cancer.htm">THE ABOUT.COM ARTICLE</a> </b>Please check out these links and help support Lung Cancer Awareness & Christine! The facebook page for Make Some Noise For Lung Cancer Awareness can be accessed <b><a href="http://www.facebook.com/pages/MAKE-SOME-NOISE-For-Lung-Cancer-Awareness/177980361468?sk=info">HERE</a>. </b><br />
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<a href="http://www.make-some-noiseforlungcancer.webs.com/">Make Some Noise for Lung Cancer Awareness Website</a><br />
<a href="http://www.facebook.com/pages/MAKE-SOME-NOISE-For-Lung-Cancer-Awareness/177980361468?sk=info">Facebook Page for Make Some Noise for Lung Cancer Awareness</a><br />
<a href="http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=285873131436318">The Event Page for Illuminate the Falls</a><br />
<a href="http://lungcancer.about.com/b/2011/10/31/niagara-falls-to-be-lit-up-for-lung-cancer.htm">The About.com Article about Illuminating the Falls</a><br />
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<b>The Live Feed Links to Watch as Niagara Falls is Illuminated November 16th at 8:15pm and 9:15pm</b><br />
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<a href="http://www.niagarafallslive.com/american_falls_live_webcam.htm" rel="nofollow nofollow" style="background-color: white; color: #3b5998; cursor: pointer; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 11px; line-height: 15px; text-align: left;" target="_blank">http://www.niagarafallsliv<wbr></wbr><span class="word_break" style="display: inline-block;"></span>e.com/american_falls_live_<wbr></wbr><span class="word_break" style="display: inline-block;"></span>webcam.htm</a><br />
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I will be posting more about CancerScore Today very soon. In the meantime, please go to the event page and support Christine's cause, and check out how neat I know Niagara Falls is going to look!!! Support Lung Cancer Awareness!!!<br />
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Buy a star and have it named for someone<br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">Ride an Elephant</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">Plant a Tree</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">Get your hair Cornrowed</span><br />
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Make Your Own Beer<br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">Dye your hair</span><br />
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Throw a coin in the Fontana di Trevi in Rome<br />
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Finish a dissertation<br />
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Ride a gondola in Venice<br />
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See a live performance of Beethoven's Ninth Symphony<br />
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Take a helicopter ride over NYC<br />
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Go wine tasting in Sonoma County, California<br />
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Change my first name<br />
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Learn Sign Language<br />
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Roast Marshmallows in my backyard<br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">Make Paper Dolls</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">Fly a Kite</span>My Cancer Scoreboardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09209188482311668121noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8953162874814572723.post-35495582673328023232011-10-27T19:53:00.001-05:002011-10-27T19:53:59.926-05:00So, Change of Plans... I'm making it to Vegas...Leaving tomorrow. Enough said. So happy and relieved that I get to go!My Cancer Scoreboardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09209188482311668121noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8953162874814572723.post-38910805961327899782011-10-17T05:37:00.001-05:002011-10-17T17:09:35.842-05:00I Figure It's Time to Check in and to Add Some New Bucket List Items :)I hope everyone is doing well. I've had crazy doctor appointments this last week and ended up finding out I have Lymphedema in several spots, so I will begin treatment for that. But hey, it's not cancer, right? I'm counting my blessings.<br />
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So here's some updated bucket list items:<br />
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Smoke a BIG FAT cigar<br />
Rearrange all the furniture in my living room<br />
Leave my umbrella and take a walk in the summer rain<br />
Have someone else clean my place from top to bottom<br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">Build a Birdhouse</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">Talk a Cop out of a ticket (I've done this a bazillion times, lol)</span><br />
Mosh<br />
Watch a baby being born<br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">Wear a fez, turban, or fedora (Thanks to John "Shockey" Komorowski)</span><br />
Read or listen closely to King's "I Have a Dream" Speech<br />
Perform a citizen's arrest<br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">Vote</span><br />
Re-think my stance on abortion<br />
Plan the perfect April Fool's Day prank<br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">Win an Argument</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">Let someone else win an Argument</span><br />
Adopt a Greyhound<br />
Drive a Maserati<br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">Call my Mother</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">Get Call Waiting</span><br />
Get Rid of Call Waiting<br />
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"If you think you can, you can. And if you think you can't, you're right". ~Mary Kay AshMy Cancer Scoreboardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09209188482311668121noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8953162874814572723.post-27080345115257486692011-10-06T16:20:00.000-05:002011-10-06T16:20:59.981-05:00Things Cancer Has Taught Me...This may be another one of my ongoing "lists" because I know I'll miss lots of things cancer has taught me in just one post Anyway, today I just feel like taking a little time to remind myself some of the things I have learned from cancer. Some of the things I still tend to forget, even after going on 4 years of battling this horrible disease. In order to stay hopeful, I think it's important to keep some of these "things learned the hard way" in front of your mind, not in the back where they are simply forgotten until another rough day comes around.<br />
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Yes, cancer is one of the worst things that can happen to a 21 year old, however, I wouldn't trade in the experience for anything. It has made me the person I am today. Cancer has taught me true determination and how to reach deep inside of myself when I thought I had nothing left to give, and to find the strength and will somewhere in myself. It has taught me that I can do and accomplish anything.<br />
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1. The first thing I realized and said to myself after I processed and accepted that yes, I did have cancer and there was no more denying it was "Well, Crap. I guess I'm not really as indestructible as I thought, this can happen to me". I think everyone, whether they admit it or not, at least on the surface, believes that nothing will happen to them... it's always someone else, until it happens to you. I realized that I am not guaranteed another 50 years in this world and that I have to live every day for that day, not for the future, or in the past, but for TODAY. Each day is a gift.<br />
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2. Cancer has taught me to LOVE and TRULY appreciate my family, for everything they are, everything they have done, and everything they have done. I would never, ever have made it this far without them. They cry for me, they pray for me, they visit me, they make me STRONG.<br />
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3. Cancer has taught me to truly TREASURE my life I guess this is similar to number one, but it's taught me the value of life. It has taught me to be THANKFUL that I have the ability to walk around, go shopping, attend school, have a few drinks with the best friends I could ask for, to truly be able to LIVE.<br />
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4. Cancer has taught me that LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL.<br />
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5. I have learned who my TRUE friends are, and the friends who were never friends, I have slowly learned how to let go of the people who were not true friends, no matter how badly it may have hurt at the time. The people who matter in my life know it, and to me that's all that matters.<br />
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So yes, I want to get this up and posted, I've worked on it a while now. I have decided it definitely is going to be ongoing, because I can already think of more things I have learned from cancer on my journey, I don't want to get to lengthly either though, so be watching for additional posts<br />
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As always, love & hope,<br />
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StacyMy Cancer Scoreboardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09209188482311668121noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8953162874814572723.post-27600196726885591362011-10-05T02:07:00.001-05:002011-10-06T16:29:19.634-05:00Latest Bucket List Items.....<b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #cc0000;">Sit in First Class </span></b><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span">Have a truly amazing one - night stand ..... (Is this even possible??) Kidding...</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span">Buy a $100 bottle of wine and share it with your oldest friends (Does this mean age, or length of friendship??...Again... Kidding :) )</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span">Have a local restaurant deliver breakfast in bed for two</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #cc0000;"><b>Send someone a "just thinking of you" card</b></span><br />
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Have your palm or tarot cards read<br />
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Walk on the beach in winter<br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: #cc0000; font-weight: bold;">Don't save for a few days </span><span class="Apple-style-span">(who HASN'T done this??)</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span">Order myself a birthday cake </span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span">It's been a rough day....and insomnia has gotten the best of me. So tired, but just can't sleep. Lots to do though, so I guess it can be a good thing. Definitely have lots of very good things going. Excited about a lot that is coming up. A more lengthy update later in the day.</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span">Love & Hope,</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span">Stacy</span><br />
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Attend Fetish and Fantasy Halloween Ball in Las Vegas - Will be accomplished this year! Have the plane tix and Event Tix.... now for the perfect costume. This party is rated the #1 Halloween Party in the world, and one of the top 10 parties in general. I cannot WAIT! Not to mention, it's in Las Vegas....Check it out <a href="http://www.halloweenball.com/">Fetish and Fantasy Halloween Ball Site</a><br />
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Jump off the Stratosphere in Las Vegas - Also will be accomplished at the end of the month... LOVE Vegas! Check it out Here: <a href="http://www.skyjumplasvegas.com/">Sky Jump Las Vegas Site</a><br />
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I have the BEST friends in the world, and I consider myself so, so, so incredibly lucky.<br />
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Next, my non-profit organization is coming along, slowly, but surely. Thanks to many people, I will be able to launch it soon, even if the initial website is just a blog temporarily. More details about the mission of the organization, etc. coming very soon.My Cancer Scoreboardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09209188482311668121noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8953162874814572723.post-17196934840583973122011-09-27T02:35:00.000-05:002011-09-27T02:35:49.948-05:00A Tribute to JP<h6 class="uiStreamMessage" data-ft="{"type":1}" style="color: purple; text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span class="messageBody" data-ft="{"type":3}">"Stupid cancer. We all want a new car, a new phone. A person who has cancer only wants one thing... to survive"</span></span></h6><h6 class="uiStreamMessage" data-ft="{"type":1}"><span class="messageBody" data-ft="{"type":3}"><span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">So, at this point, most of you probably know of the passing of one of my best friends, JP last week. I appreciate all of the support and kind words I've received from so many people. He was a wonderful, wonderful guy. Below is a recent picture of us. </span></span></span></h6><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgLZoN2I674Jvat31dSAt5u_2Jf7ZOa_xITtl7yvbiCxuNICyB08ASGwQeCTi8jb6W_qhrfSgksbV54PLHQZMKwgPnIoyu1fteWFQq9DMn4WUJh2utmq3rN8ZbTfuroiMHZAO7_DxZAjYmR/s1600/IMG_0913.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="264" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgLZoN2I674Jvat31dSAt5u_2Jf7ZOa_xITtl7yvbiCxuNICyB08ASGwQeCTi8jb6W_qhrfSgksbV54PLHQZMKwgPnIoyu1fteWFQq9DMn4WUJh2utmq3rN8ZbTfuroiMHZAO7_DxZAjYmR/s320/IMG_0913.JPG" width="320" /></a></div><h6 class="uiStreamMessage" data-ft="{"type":1}"><span class="messageBody" data-ft="{"type":3}"><span style="font-family: Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"> For JP: </span></span></span></h6><h6 class="uiStreamMessage" data-ft="{"type":1}"><span style="font-size: small;"><span class="messageBody" data-ft="{"type":3}">I wish there was just one more day. One more time that he would tell me "Girl, you need Jesus", or "B*tch I WILL stab you" Or "Don't EVER touch my phone again" (Response to when I switched his new phone he didn't know how to work too well yet to Spanish... haha) We had many, many "inside" jokes that no one else really understands. JP, one of my best buddies... you are missed, so much, by so many. I'm trying not to be selfish, I really am, because obviously you were needed up there for something special God had in store for you, but sometimes I feel like I need you here more. I will never forget you or the amazing friendship we had. I have been so blessed to have you in my life, if only for a few short years. I know you're looking down on me, and right now that's bringing me comfort. I love you - You're my angel now.</span></span></h6><h6 class="uiStreamMessage" data-ft="{"type":1}"><span style="font-size: small;"><span class="messageBody" data-ft="{"type":3}"> </span></span></h6><h6 class="uiStreamMessage" data-ft="{"type":1}"><span class="messageBody" data-ft="{"type":3}"><br />
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Fast for 3 days - just bread and water<br />
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Do a backflip on my Trampoline<br />
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Paint my bedroom red, black, or hot pink<br />
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Ride Space Mountain<br />
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Prepare a Lobster Dinner<br />
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Invent an identity<br />
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Surf<br />
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Sit in a skybox at a sporting event<br />
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Catch the bouquet<br />
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and last but not least tonight - Roll my own sushi :)My Cancer Scoreboardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09209188482311668121noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8953162874814572723.post-58907402330443932602011-09-18T23:44:00.001-05:002011-09-18T23:51:11.674-05:00Something Different....<div style="text-align: center;">I hope everyone had a fantastic weekend, I did! It went by too quick! </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">So I decided to try something a little different today and use some images that really struck home for me. Enjoy! And I MAY decide to tag on some bucket list items at the end.... </div><div><br />
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</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhEfc-cXRkjKv8dltZDW33n7TfIcwE25jBAxpr2aIHxzzI8aVts9NmISZU8UUWwWGa2MNhx2tiD3VWybCCi82e_5uJm_sZOAixfZCDCdqmOVa0KtF-KUiwjdVpUvG4cz3FmG5PnEqjhOrG1/s1600/qt56eD.gif" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhEfc-cXRkjKv8dltZDW33n7TfIcwE25jBAxpr2aIHxzzI8aVts9NmISZU8UUWwWGa2MNhx2tiD3VWybCCi82e_5uJm_sZOAixfZCDCdqmOVa0KtF-KUiwjdVpUvG4cz3FmG5PnEqjhOrG1/s1600/qt56eD.gif" /></a></div><div>And for the VERY beginning of my Bucket List (I have SO many things).... The Bold items in red have already been accomplished. This is just a very random order, starting from the beginning of my list. So here it goes:</div><div><br />
</div><div>Attend the Olympics</div><div><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">Go Up in a Hot Air Balloon</span></b></div><div><div class="MsoNormal">Finish a marathon without throwing up</div><div class="MsoNormal">Learn to Sew …. Like actually be able to make things, not just sewing broken buttons.</div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;"><b>Skinny Dip</b></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;"><b>Cut a Demo tape at a recording studio</b></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;"><b>Press Flowers</b></span></div><div class="MsoNormal"><b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">Learn to play an instrument</span></b></div><div class="MsoNormal">Venture cross country on a Harley </div><div class="MsoNormal"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;"><b>Catch fireflies</b></span></div><div class="MsoNormal">Learn to Sail</div><div class="MsoNormal">Attend a Catholic Mass WILLINGLY</div><div class="MsoNormal">Swim with Dolphins</div><div class="MsoNormal"><br />
</div><div class="MsoNormal"><o:p>Wow, I didn't realize out of this bunch that I have accomplished so many. There is still so much left though! And I'm afraid, no matter how long I live, whether it be until next week or for 70 more years I don't think I will accomplish them all.... But that's the fun of it I suppose :) Will add some more later on :)<br />
Leave some comments, or any Bucket List ideas! </o:p></div></div><div></div>My Cancer Scoreboardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09209188482311668121noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8953162874814572723.post-2847062577050415422011-09-14T23:17:00.000-05:002011-09-14T23:17:14.678-05:00Something I Received and Definitely Needed Today...As many of you know, my birthday was 9/11... I received a birthday card from my piano teacher when I was younger with a piece of writing called "The Optimist Creed" I had never heard it before (maybe I am just behind on the times?) but I really needed it today... it really lifted me up. And I hope it does the same for all of my readers!!<br />
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<div style="text-align: center;">The Optimist Creed</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: center;">Promise yourself: To be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind. </div><div style="text-align: center;">To talk health, happiness, and prosperity to every person you meet.</div><div style="text-align: center;">To make all of your friends feel that there is something in them.</div><div style="text-align: center;">To look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true.</div><div style="text-align: center;">To think only the best, to work only for the best, and to expect only the best.</div><div style="text-align: center;">To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others as you are about your own.</div><div style="text-align: center;">To forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future.</div><div style="text-align: center;">To wear a cheerful countenance at all times and to give every living creature you meet a smile. </div><div style="text-align: center;">To give so much to the improvement to yourself that you have no time to criticize others.</div><div style="text-align: center;">To be too large for worry too noble for anger, too strong for fear, and to happy to permit the presence of trouble.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: left;">I found this to be absolutely beautiful and wanted to share with everyone. Thank you to Mary G., My piano teacher for years for sending this in my birthday card. She did it in calligraphy and I am definitely having it framed, she is truly a beyond talented woman. Thank you Mrs. G for all you have given me in my life, and for keeping up with me, even when I fall behind. You are truly loved. </div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: left;">P.S. How is everyone, especially all of my dedicated followers? I've missed our ranting and raving about life and would love to get back to it again. </div>My Cancer Scoreboardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09209188482311668121noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8953162874814572723.post-80813461196961963172011-09-12T07:58:00.002-05:002011-10-13T23:33:11.540-05:00To New Beginnings....This post has been a long time coming. So, I'm officially a quarter century years old as of yesterday, and the 4 year mark of the beginning of my battle is coming up very soon.<br />
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</div><div>Things have been hectic, per usual, but I've also had a lot on my mind as well. I've met so many inspiring people throughout my battle with this horrible, horrible disease. I'm sick of seeing it take innocent lives way too early, and I continue to fight. </div><div><br />
</div><div>Things have been almost too good lately, I've been so incredibly blessed with amazing people in my life, some new, some old, some re-kindled friendships. And for that, I cannot be more thankful. The support and help I receive from friends and family astonishes me every time I think about it. I would like to take a second to thank someone who has been such an inspiration in my life, Deb Overly. I met Deb when I was in high school, and you could never ask for a more supportive, loving, and encouraging individual. I consider myself so blessed to have Deb in my life. I wish everyone fighting this disease was fortunate enough to have a "Deb" in their life. </div><div><br />
</div><div>And then there's the negative. The Whys.... The begging for answers. It goes through my mind every single day. I find myself trying to find reasons why I have this disease, and why so many other people end up suffering so much because of what this disease does to you not only physically, but psychologically. Since I was diagnosed, I've watched so many people lose their battle to this disease and I'm determined to make some sort of difference, in what exact way, I'm not yet positive. Right now my focus is on me, getting well for good, continuing my job search, and getting 100% healthy. </div><div><br />
</div><div>Since my last post, almost 2 years ago, (GOSH, I cannot believe it's been so long) so much has happened. I lost my grandfather (mom's dad) last October, one of the greatest men I've ever met, and I miss him terribly. Everyone has their own struggles, and I am not one to judge another person's life or even compare it to what I have been through personally. That's not my job here. My goal is to reach out to other people and find a way to beat this thing.</div><div><br />
</div><div>Also, in the past two years, I've started quite an extensive list of "Things I want to Do Before I Die." I think I am going to start posting a few at a time as I continue to update, which, I promise, will be much more often. So along with school, job searching, and of course periodic checkups and medication changes, I've kept pretty busy. I also have started a list of "Things People Probably Don't Know About Me" which I will also try to keep updated. Here goes the first few:</div><div><br />
</div><div>Things People May Not Know About Me</div><div><br />
</div><div>When I love you, you have my whole heart. </div><div><br />
</div><div>I love being up at the lake in the summer with my family, our "family week" when 20+ of us are staying in one house is something I look forward to every single year.</div><div><br />
</div><div>I make most decisions very quickly.</div><div><br />
</div><div>I love laughter and laughing.</div><div><br />
</div><div>I still find myself wondering why the heck life has to be so challenging at times. </div><div><br />
</div><div>I HATE cancer and all of the people it has affected in my life. </div><div><br />
</div><div>I have been a nail-biter as far back as I can remember, but have recently quit. </div><div><br />
</div><div>Cancer has changed me and my life forever. </div><div><br />
</div><div>And last but not least for today, I'm learning simplicity. Keeping things as simple as possible, and enjoying every minute of it. We only get one life, and I want to live it positively and happily. I thank a certain individual who knows who they are for helping me realize this. </div><div><br />
</div><div>I think I will post the "things to do before I die" separately from my blog postings... I'm also looking into getting away from the blog and possibly going for an actual website. We will see what happens :) </div><div><br />
</div><div>As always, to all of you out there who read and support this battle called cancer, thank you. And to those of you who are fighting the disease, don't give up. Keep on keeping on. This monster CAN be beat. And all of you who are supporting someone with cancer...thank you. Your positive attitude and all you do is beyond appreciated. </div><div><br />
</div><div>So, there was a brief little update... I look forward to hearing from some of my bloggers soon! I've missed my writing time:) I'll be working on another post this afternoon, I do have a lot to catch up on!!</div><div><br />
</div><div><3 Stacy </div>My Cancer Scoreboardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09209188482311668121noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8953162874814572723.post-66883871594348352622009-10-06T18:28:00.009-05:002009-10-09T14:11:27.686-05:00Cancer Milestones...<p style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class="MsoNormal"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Georgia', 'serif'; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'font-family:'Times New Roman';font-size:12;" >So, I created this blog in order to keep my friends and family up-to-date with my progress and with my life --- I realize, I've been failing miserably at keeping it up. Sometimes it is so difficult to stay in touch with all of the people in my life who care about me and who want to be informed of my well-being. I created this site not only to allow people to "be in the know" and to leave encouraging comments of support, but also as a way for me to work through my own feelings about my disease and the ups and downs that come along with it.<br /><br /></span></p><p style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:7;"></span></p><p style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:7;">One of my latest goals has been to maintain a "normal routine". I've made some progress, but I've also been forced to face the fact that cancer is NOT normal, and because of this fact it makes maintaining a completely normal routine impossible. I'm forcing myself to realize and accept that while fighting this disease my life is going to be messy and inconsistent. I've figured out there is only so much I can do to change this. My plans are forced to change at the drop of a dime, making me feel at times that I have no control over my life whatsoever. This lack of control is one of the most difficult things for me. Prior to cancer I was used to having 100% complete control over my life, but not with cancer!!<br /><br /></span></p><p style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:7;"></span></p><p style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:7;">So although I've been slacking B-I-G-T-I-M-E with the updates, I assure you that is going to change - Starting now. (I know, I know, how many times have you heard that before?)</span></p><p style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class="MsoNormal"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Georgia', 'serif'; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'font-family:'Times New Roman';font-size:12;" ><?xml:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:office" /><o:p></o:p></span></p><p style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class="MsoNormal"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Georgia', 'serif'; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'font-family:'Times New Roman';font-size:12;" ><o:p></o:p></span></p><br /><p style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class="MsoNormal"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Georgia', 'serif'; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'font-family:'Times New Roman';font-size:12;" >Over the past few months I've experienced many what I have decided to call <strong><span style="font-size:130%;color:#000099;">"Cancer Milestones".</span></strong> So, I guess cancer and my current treatment is the logical place to start. As far as the treatment progression (or lack thereof), as of right now we are at a sort of temporary stand-still. After almost two months of the immunotherapy clinical trial regimen my body decided it was not going to tolerate it any longer. I developed some very severe (and WAY abnormal side effects.)<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>As of last week I was taken off the drugs and given a 7 day break.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>I will resume the same immunotherapy treatment tomorrow with a decreased dosage and longer breaks between the cycles.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>If all goes well, hopefully I will be able to continue this treatment and my body won't react in crazy ways.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>Prior to the abnormal side-effects that developed with this trial over time I found this particular treatment to be the easiest on my body thus far.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>Through the duration of this regimen<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>the extent of my discomfort didn’t normally progress any further than muscle aches and extreme fatigue.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>(Much better considering all of the other treatments and some of their horrible side effects I have experienced.)<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>I’m keeping my fingers crossed that these stupid cancer cells decide to finally give up. Or to at least not increase and spread to any new locations.<br /></span></p><p style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class="MsoNormal"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Georgia', 'serif'; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'font-family:'Times New Roman';font-size:12;" ><o:p></o:p></span></p><p style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class="MsoNormal"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Georgia', 'serif'; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'font-family:'Times New Roman';font-size:12;" ><o:p></o:p></span></p><br /><p style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class="MsoNormal"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Georgia', 'serif'; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'font-family:'Times New Roman';font-size:12;" >As many of you already know, I am <span style="font-size:130%;color:#663366;"><strong>back in Ohio with my family</strong></span> – as of right now while I continue to fight this it is definitely the best place for me. I really do need the support and care from my family members. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>As hard as it is to be back at times, I have wonderful family and friends here.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>I get by reminding myself that this is not permanent and it is the best solution for me right now.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>Though true friends sometimes seem few and far between, I would give the world for the few <span style="mso-spacerun: yes">I do have - they are simply amazing. Thank you.<br /></span></span></p><p style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class="MsoNormal"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Georgia', 'serif'; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'font-family:'Times New Roman';font-size:12;" ><o:p></o:p></span></p><p style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class="MsoNormal"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Georgia', 'serif'; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'font-family:'Times New Roman';font-size:12;" ><o:p></o:p></span></p><br /><p style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class="MsoNormal"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Georgia', 'serif'; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'font-family:'Times New Roman';font-size:12;" >Now for the <span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="color:#000066;"><strong>GOOD NEWS</strong>.</span></span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>I officially got the “okay” from my doctors to begin lifting weights and training again (with the agreement that I would listen to my body and not push too hard.)<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>For those of you who know me personally, you know this probably will be a little bit difficult for me, but I cannot tell you how happy I was to hear this news! It certainly turned my day around today.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>I will begin training with Scott Vickery here in Fremont at his gym tomorrow.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>As for today, I ran the first significant distance since the day I was diagnosed, almost <strong>TWO</strong> years ago.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>I got on the treadmill and ran almost 2 miles, and I feel <strong>GOOD!</strong><span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> I'm hoping to eventually be able to run some local races again. I can't explain how amazing it feels to know that</span> I have at least a little bit of control over my body again.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>Once I’m back into a little bit of shape I may try a few classes at the YMCA – I know my aunt is the instructor of one in particular that I would love to try. I'm probably getting a little too far ahead of myself as I am no where near conditioned enough to participate yet, but hopefully I will get to that stage sooner than later.<br /><br /></span></p><p style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class="MsoNormal"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Georgia', 'serif'; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'font-family:'Times New Roman';font-size:12;" >I'm even excited enough to post this post-run picture of myself!! (Now THAT is rare for me.)<img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 336px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 400px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5389642774399713538" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgz8Y3fFThnsm6xlX2HXcwb6dKCvHvyS7J0WBGP75nP47V3UAUUyOBOBIryIUZEXYXS0Y1Qkvl-bB7sxhjm_uU83Hk9uofdYSgeprGLXUCoLiR6aeR1vuen_PS9bvl_YgIJRahwI2TiyNec/s400/IMG_0294.JPG" /></span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Georgia', 'serif'; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'font-family:'Times New Roman';font-size:12;" >I also start school again as of Monday.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>Due to my health insurance requirements I have to be a full-time student – so here I go again!!! It's hard for me to believe today that o</span><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Georgia', 'serif'; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'font-family:'Times New Roman';font-size:12;" >nly a week ago I was bored out of my mind – I definitely don’t foresee that being an issue for a while!<br /></span></p><p style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class="MsoNormal"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Georgia', 'serif'; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'font-family:'Times New Roman';font-size:12;" ><o:p></o:p></span></p><p style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class="MsoNormal"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Georgia', 'serif'; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'font-family:'Times New Roman';font-size:12;" ><o:p></o:p></span></p><br /><p style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class="MsoNormal"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Georgia', 'serif'; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'font-family:'Times New Roman';font-size:12;" >October 15<sup>th</sup> will be another “Cancer Milestone” It will be the two year mark since my original diagnosis – not quite as positive as the other "Cancer Milestones" above, but it's there just the same.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>I look back and I cannot believe it’s been <strong><span style="font-size:130%;color:#993399;">TWO years!!</span></strong> Once again, looking at the positive side, when I was diagnosed they told me I had 4-6 months to live, and I’m<span style="font-size:130%;"> <strong><span style="color:#003333;">STILL HERE & STILL FIGHTING!</span></strong></span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>I am determined to beat this disease and continue to advocate for this fight!!!<br /></span></p><p style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class="MsoNormal"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Georgia', 'serif'; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'font-family:'Times New Roman';font-size:12;" ><o:p></o:p></span></p><p style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class="MsoNormal"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Georgia', 'serif'; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'font-family:'Times New Roman';font-size:12;" ><o:p></o:p></span></p><br /><p style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class="MsoNormal"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Georgia', 'serif'; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'font-family:'Times New Roman';font-size:12;" >Thank you everyone for your continuous support and encouragement.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes"> </span>I cannot tell you the difference it makes, especially on the bad days when motivation and positive energy is difficult to come by. <span style="color:#990000;"><strong><span style="font-size:130%;">THE FIGHT ISN'T OVER!!!</span></strong><br /></span><br /></span></p><p style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class="MsoNormal"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Georgia', 'serif'; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'font-family:'Times New Roman';font-size:12;" ><o:p></o:p></span></p><p style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class="MsoNormal"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Georgia', 'serif'; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'font-family:'Times New Roman';font-size:12;" ></span></p><p style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class="MsoNormal"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Georgia', 'serif'; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'font-family:'Times New Roman';font-size:12;" >I will continue to update with my status & progress. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes"></span>I’d love to hear from everybody!! Definitely leave some comments!!! </span></p><p style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class="MsoNormal"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Georgia', 'serif'; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'font-family:'Times New Roman';font-size:12;" ><o:p></o:p></span></p><p style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class="MsoNormal"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Georgia', 'serif'; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'font-family:'Times New Roman';font-size:12;" ><o:p></o:p></span></p><br /><p style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class="MsoNormal"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Georgia', 'serif'; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'font-family:'Times New Roman';font-size:12;" >Love,<o:p></o:p></span></p><p style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class="MsoNormal"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Georgia', 'serif'; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'font-family:'Times New Roman';font-size:12;" ><o:p></o:p></span></p><br /><p style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" class="MsoNormal"><span style="FONT-FAMILY: 'Georgia', 'serif'; mso-fareast-font-family: 'Times New Roman'font-family:'Times New Roman';font-size:12;" >Stacy<o:p></o:p></span></p>My Cancer Scoreboardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09209188482311668121noreply@blogger.com14tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8953162874814572723.post-22461309264239366362009-04-15T00:39:00.024-05:002009-10-06T19:16:58.759-05:001 1/2 Year Cancer-Versary<span style="font-family:arial;">1 1/2 Years Ago Today - I was Diagnosed with this Horrible Disease. 1 1/2 years ago today, the words "Cancer" and "Melanoma" came out of my doctors mouth and told ME, that yes, I had CANCER! I'm not sure why I find 1 1/2 years so significant (I mean, why wasn't a year so significant to me?? I'm not exactly sure. Maybe because I have been slacking HORRIBLY on keeping my blog up-to-date, and this 1 1/2 year mark is a chance to get it going again? Yes, let's go with that. I do know I've spent so much time thinking about what I wanted to say today. Somehow, I'm still stuck with nothing...<br /><br />So, I guess here it goes...<br /><br />18 Months ago today, my life changed when cancer interrupted everything I had going in what I thought was my perfect life. 1 1/2 years ago today, I was certain I would be dead in just a few months.</span><br /><br /><div align="center"><span style="font-family:arial;"><span style="font-size:130%;color:#000066;"><strong>But today, 18 months later I AM ALIVE and I AM FIGHTING!!</strong></span></span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family:arial;"><span style="color:#333399;"><strong><span style="font-size:130%;">I've decided to call it my Cancer-Versary</span></strong><br /></span></span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">When I think of anniversaries, I think of milestones. The person I am today, 18 months after this disease decided to create a complete mess in my life is a completely different person than that scared girl who was told she had almost zero chance of seeing her next birthday. So today, oddly enough, is a happy day for me. I am still here. </span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family:Arial;"></span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family:Arial;"></span></div><div align="left"></div><strong><span style="font-family:arial;"><span style="COLOR: rgb(102,51,102);font-size:130%;" ></span></span></strong><div align="center"><strong><span style="font-family:arial;"><span style="font-size:130%;color:#990000;"><span style="color:#990000;">So, how have I made it this far?</span></span> </span></strong></div><span style="font-family:arial;"><div align="left"><br />That is a question I find myself asking frequently, and after really thinking about it, I’ve realized the constant support of my friends (old and new) my amazing family, the ability to find <strong>HUMOR</strong> and to <strong>LAUGH </strong>at the many experiences associated with this horrible disease, the personal growth I’ve experienced since I was diagnosed, the non-profit foundation I co-founded with a friend in support of other people all over the world who are fighting and the overall change cancer has created in my life are the reasons I am still here today, 18 months later fighting harder than I could have ever imagined I had the ability to fight.<br /><br />Somehow, at some point in the past 18 months I have learned how to <strong>stay positive</strong> (ok, at least I’ve learned to try really hard to be positive, most of the time.) I've stopped allowing myself to waste my time focusing on negative possibilities because I believe 100% in the horrible power that cancer can have. I know if I focus on the negative, that cancer truly has the ability to take over and end my life faster than the quickest spreading, most invasive cancers known. So, I do my best to shut down the negativity.<br /><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">For someone my age, 18 months is a lifetime – and it really does seem like it sometimes. Losing my independence has been one of the worst things, but I've also learned that there are people here willing to move mountains for me. I have the greatest friends and family. Friends and family who have never left my side and who have loved me through good, bad, ugly, through <strong>EVERYTHING</strong>. The relentless love and support my family has probably been the strongest support line I could have ever have imagined. Since day one they have sacrificed more than anyone can ever believe possible in order to help me to their greatest possible capacity. They have provided such a solid, tangible foundation for me. They have never let me wonder how far they would go. When most people would be at their limit, they go furthur, every single time. For 18 months their dedication, love, faith, hope and support has <strong>NEVER</strong> wavered, regardless of the strength of the many, many trials and tests this disease continues to bring. They have been my strength, my voice, my eyes – not only now, but since the day I was born. The love I feel for them is so far beyond words or expression - They have been my life line, over and over again and I cannot thank them enough.<br /></span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">Cancer is so hard, but Humor has had a huge role in carrying me to where I am today. My friends and family have slowly adapted to my attitude of at least appearing to be dealing well. My friends laugh, at least 75-80% of the time we are awake and together, I’m not just talking, but I’m laughing. Laughing HARD. I’m talking doubled over in pain, tears running down my face, hyperventilating while making every attempt not to pee my pants kind of laughter. Non-stop – to the point of losing our voices from laughing so hard. I laugh at my situation constantly and laugh at myself even more. Laughing keeps me floating and my friends and family laugh with me to ensure I don’t drown in it. </span><br /><br /></span></div><span style="font-family:arial;"><strong>The Bottom Line:</strong> 1 1/2 years ago today, Cancer changed my life. But cancer has also made me a new person. Cancer has made me better. If this hadn’t happened, I don’t feel at all confident I would ever have experienced true happiness. Cancer has given me the opportunity to learn about myself and the person I am in a way I never knew possible. Cancer has allowed me to begin a relationship with myself, a person I look back and realize I never really knew. I know God, I know peace and I know happiness. I go to bed every night with complete confidence that there is a reason for all of this happening in my life and knowing that I am safe. I used to depend on happiness and comfort from other people in my life, but I have finally learned what it means to rely on myself and to be content with the person I am and what I do. I am so at peace, so much more than before.</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">I have no idea what the future holds for me. I have no idea how long I will have to keep fighting this monster inside of my body. I <strong>HATE</strong> cancer and I <strong>HATE </strong>the negative things it has brought upon me over the past year and a half. I <strong>HATE</strong> sitting by and watching what cancer is doing to others and watching it destroy and take away innocent lives. But I do know that I am strong, I am resilient, I am determined, I am optimistic and <strong>I am a FIGHTER and a SURVIVOR. </strong>I can beat this, regardless of the obstacles cancer stands in my way. As much as I hate cancer and how it has taken over my body, my life and my world – Cancer has become a part of the person I have become and has truly taught me now to live. No matter how long I have to fight, I’m ready and will not fail.</span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:arial;">Above all, I know I wouldn't be here today if I had to do this alone, in any aspect. I have been so lucky to receive such amazing support from my family and friends. I will never be able to express how much the people who stand by my side every single day mean to me. I truly have the most amazing Team of Cancer Fighting Warriors on my side helping me fight every step of the way. The constant support is appreciated more than you will ever know. 18 Months and counting, 18 months down, but the <strong>FIGHT</strong> is <strong>NOT</strong> over.<br /><br /></span>My Cancer Scoreboardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09209188482311668121noreply@blogger.com15tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8953162874814572723.post-52863547313439743022009-03-27T04:58:00.006-05:002009-10-06T19:18:00.505-05:00My Blog Layout ChangesHey Everyone!!!<br /><br />Yes, I am actually posting something on my blog, but unfortunately you are probably going to be a little disappointed. I just want to let everyone know that due to some "unexpected circumstances" (AKA, I didn't create a back-up of my previous blog layout) If you happen to stumble across my page while I'm creating the new layouts you may see some crazy colors and other odd changes while it's in progress. (I'm sure the level of "craziness" it is currently at right now is scary enough for you!!)<br /><br />As far as a REAL update goes, I assure you it is on its way, probably more sooner than you all believe!!<br /><br />Thanks for all of your support of me & my cancer fight. <br /><br />Stay Tuned... The Blog will be back to "normal" as soon as the new design is finished :)<br /><br />Have a great Friday!<br /><br />StacyMy Cancer Scoreboardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09209188482311668121noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8953162874814572723.post-77242884967382096132008-12-23T07:25:00.002-06:002009-10-09T17:51:44.444-05:00Baby It's Cold Outside!!!Hey Everyone!!<br /><br /><br />This second blog entry sure has been a long time coming, I certainly have MANY updates for you.<br /><br /><div align="center"><a href="http://www.nanasboxnonprofit.blogspot.com/"><span style="font-size:180%;color:#000066;"><strong>Nana's Box</strong></span></a></div><br />Nana's Box Nana's Box is a nonprofit service committed to providing a photo box to cancer patients who are undergoing treatment. Nana's Box offers this service to the individual patient with the help and support of families, and those volunteers interested in the emotional support of cancer patients. Here are some photos of the gorgeous box I received from this amazing organization. For more information about Nana's Box, please <a href="http://nanasboxnonprofit.blogspot.com/2008/12/fabulous-feature-friday-fighter.html"><span style="color:#330033;"><strong>Click Here.</strong><br /></span></a><br /><br /><p align="center"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjkCyXC-mlGgfQct13egyflWoNfPJDMyQuZ4-0TP82103J1UcvC_wmKklTimQQQBHn5aAQSR3Ar6lVcEHOFS4jfu_V8eGc32abWqLL3-81az7H_TP41MXP8TFlxqbPtt4c1tfWvSGLhCjT0/s1600-h/Nana's+Box.jpg"><img style="WIDTH: 200px; HEIGHT: 144px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5283000932867141122" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjkCyXC-mlGgfQct13egyflWoNfPJDMyQuZ4-0TP82103J1UcvC_wmKklTimQQQBHn5aAQSR3Ar6lVcEHOFS4jfu_V8eGc32abWqLL3-81az7H_TP41MXP8TFlxqbPtt4c1tfWvSGLhCjT0/s200/Nana's+Box.jpg" /></a></p><p align="center"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiS4nzCnBEkt3dRbHJ-P-TdPzzzibbkxWRHQeW5WKUfOMt0PKlfaysTFdCWA3CM8jDxxif1xaHfWcw8-B1ylpLrY6cOI-mmr_IAghB-qfjJkziArMXm0pBLEcPKf4_122te2v01AdF0IuzZ/s1600-h/NanaBoxStacy.jpg"><img style="WIDTH: 193px; HEIGHT: 200px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5283000927561602370" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiS4nzCnBEkt3dRbHJ-P-TdPzzzibbkxWRHQeW5WKUfOMt0PKlfaysTFdCWA3CM8jDxxif1xaHfWcw8-B1ylpLrY6cOI-mmr_IAghB-qfjJkziArMXm0pBLEcPKf4_122te2v01AdF0IuzZ/s200/NanaBoxStacy.jpg" /></a></p><br /><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 251px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 239px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5282986859426847698" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjEFUa9-2_Dq9PJAWtvpDpzs7glH0XUxGeuFLo9yyIKzivpVvNOmmFhMj0Nj9nTraoE9rdwmRyo1w-OmM7bZaEsEwQqGYCd7YqSg1h0fchA35WjHcQHTid-BUfwjEjA66j-vGUSTPN1_qDg/s320/Nana's+Box3.jpg" /><br /><br /><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 320px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 239px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5282986767054752562" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgVpJ6r6blHKJDfBlKPnCx3xbP-OE2I9AVrMqiYZrQLTUoI81xm8Ww4If7BZfbGCTWdrFtS1Fao6pmxucfj1_VedALoG-aQWmpzltG3G8ancYfmIlSxKVsr3KaEUoFGLLWPsBtyTmuVosd4/s320/Nana's+Box2.jpg" /><br /><div align="center"><a href="http://nanasboxnonprofit.blogspot.com/2008/12/fabulous-feature-friday-fighter.html"><u><span style="font-size:130%;color:#000066;"><strong>Nana's Box Fabulous Friday Feature</strong></span></u> </a><br /></div><div align="center"></div><br /><div align="left">In addition to the beautiful box that was made and sent to me by Nana's Box, I also had the opportunity to tell some of my cancer story on the Nana's Box Fabulous Friday Feature this past week. Make sure to visit and check it out!! Click on the Button Below to view my Story!!<br /></div><br /><p align="center"><a href="http://nanasboxnonprofit.blogspot.com/2008/12/fabulous-feature-friday-fighter.html"><img style="WIDTH: 158px; HEIGHT: 151px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5283000930694550034" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEisCde8FYfNa-FM7cry9TNY0V1fiasf3Q21N73Dy_laLYf6nVwVZ329ZP9qvYXLHxStxA9ueu6v-fxECooZ521wevY0UGURKm0MxU-dhTJYjz7GXD3vnzXIvOhLyvB-XlTQiqEhv0x1mLCy/s200/I_was_featured_blue_and_green_logo.jpg" /></a></p><p>There is so much more I have to update about, but last minute Christmas shopping is calling. I will certainly continue this afternoon!</p><p>Everyone have a great day!!!<br /></p>My Cancer Scoreboardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09209188482311668121noreply@blogger.com11tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8953162874814572723.post-13153996723939306272008-12-04T21:54:00.002-06:002009-10-09T17:50:31.199-05:00Finally.... I Did It!!<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjSkaJVCm5t3HVLtglXaxO9gUQMJ57o14U26kq483wI5Fqz-2dgJVC0dcA91sdOyPH0nHc2a9T8l95nu7uOGaifcdAuOXjjolwpFzqZ8sgbBiR6Z6tpY3Y3crjvPsUni7W7EcVsOnZcZO2S/s1600-h/Faceshot.jpg"></a> <div>So, my many blog friends I have met since my battle with cancer began in October, 2007 will tell you, this blog has been SUCH a long time coming! And I couldn't be more excited to finally get it up and running! I have met so many fantastic people through blogging since this entire cancer experience began. There are so many amazing cancer support networks out there and so many organizations that are doing amazing AMAZING things for people with cancer - I cannot thank you enough! You will find links to their pages everywhere on my blog in the future - I assure you. </div><br /><div></div><div></div><div>So, here's to my first of many blog posts.... </div><div> </div><div></div><div>Cancer WILL Lose,</div><div></div><div> </div><div>Stacy </div>My Cancer Scoreboardhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09209188482311668121noreply@blogger.com15